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Sunday, March 19th, 2006
1:36 am
[fiain]
Hello, new member here.

I have been in and out of therapy for 9 years, and have been seeing my current therapist for little under a year. She is wonderful, but I find myself wanting to leave therapy again. I get so angry when I go, for I feel all of a sudden like I am being judged or berated. Understand, it isn't my therapist at all. Like I said, she is wonderful, immensely understanding and compassionate, and a lifesaver. But I am going through a sort of...well, self-sabotage, as the term goes.

My question to each member is this:
What do you do to keep yourself in cognitive behavioural therapy when you find yourself itching to leave? I know from experience that whenever I leave treatment I end up in a hole again. I have Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD. Therapy combined with meditation and yoga keeps me under control, but therapy has truly changed me into a stronger, healthier person. So what should I do?

Any advice is welcome. Thank you for this wonderful community. Namaste!
Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
12:42 pm
[notthefalconer]
I am old and I thrived on analysis
since then - days are OK except when I spend too much, react too much, get aggressive with self and others - and I am virtually a recluse. I've joined because Cog Therapy has been around for about 25 years her but never quite lifted off. I'd be happy - GRATEFUL - to know more, here. I swallowed too big a library some time back to read books.

However I do and will respect anyone who shares by answering.

KH
Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
12:32 am
[rainswolf]
What is your relationship to emotions?
...what about emotions? I find myself questioning love for instance. What is it, how do you know when you feel it? How do you know when you're in love?

One might consider emotions and cognitions to be separate, but I wonder if there are cognitive ways to make myself feel more at peace with my emotional self.

There isn't a very clear question here. However, it seems that thinking about cognition leaves something to be desired when it comes to understanding and knowing one's self emotionally.
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
6:28 pm
[jaclynl]
Attachment
Does anyone know what cognitive therapy teaches about attachments? And if CBT says nothing about it in particular can any one guide me to a resource perhaps that can help me deal with my attachments to things, places and people? I have a serious problem with impermnence and want to start dealing with it to stop all the unnecessary pain in my life but I don't know where to start.

I know  herringprincess practices buddhism which does say a lot about attachments, and I have started reading some of that, and understand it all, but am looking for ways to activey work on it, as just thinking about an understanding it doesn't seem to be helping me from still practicing the behaviour. </b></a>
Monday, July 11th, 2005
11:17 pm
[rainswolf]
How to be less judgemental?
What do you think is a good approach to dealing with your own judgements or negative feelings towards others?

I do believe that often if we dislike or judge someone, or feel really turned off by them, it's because they embody some aspect of ourselves that we don't want to face or accept. I try to remind myself of this and seek out what it is that I need to face and accept in myself. But sometimes it's hard to figure out what it is.
Friday, July 8th, 2005
10:59 am
[jaclynl]
Putting things into perspective
Things have gotten worse for me lately and I wonder if it is just a stop on the road to recovery, like I need to go through this to really be better. Lately I have been really evaluating myself and what I'm finding isn't the greatest. I am wondering when it is appropriate to tell yourself your thoughts aren't true and try to pump up your self-esteem, and when it would be wiser to really examine yourself and be honest about what you find. In therapy I find everything is positive, for instance my therapist will tell me there is nothing wrong with me when I am sad that I don't have many friends instead of letting me believe that I am unlikeable. But what if it is true? What if I really am not nice, what if I am one of those people who everyone avoids, that everyone talks about behind their backs? Is it better to try to face that and change it or ignore the situation and tell myself I'm being delusional to save myself from deeper depression?

-Jaclyn
Sunday, June 26th, 2005
2:31 pm
[jaclynl]
Back to Core Beliefs
I am in the process of really identifying my core beliefs. Not just thinking about it but identifying them, writing them down, and trying to actively change them with the help of my therapist. She has instructed me to go through the last three months of thought records and pull out recurring hot thoughts and use them to identify my core beliefs. I have had a fairly easy time identifying core beliefs about myself, but am having a hard time identifying them as they relate to others and to the world in general. Does anyone have a good startgey for identifying core beliefs in general (I'm sure I'm just skimming the surface with ones about me too). These thoughts are so deeply ingrained that it's hard to pull them to the concious mind. Any suggestions would be helpful.

Thanks
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
3:36 pm
[flatxchewxlate]
Ok, so here's my deal.

For the past week and a half, I've been insanely emotional. About EVERYTHING! Work, family, friends, friendboy(my sorta boyfriend situation), wanting to go back to school.....everything! It got so bad that I was having random crying spells, feeling really depressed and worried, getting irritated at ANYTHING. At first, I chalked it up to me wanting to move on with my life, get my license, get a new job, go back to school(i'm 21 years old.) However, I got my drivers permit Thursday, and it didn't really seem to give any sort of relief. I was still having the depressive crying spells. So I started browsing through various disorders and diseases and syndromes to kinda give me a concrete reasoning for it all. I ended up diagnosing myself with depression, bipolar disorder, and premsntrual dysphoric disorder, all within a few days. I have this really bad problem of being in a good situation, and then overanalyzing it to the point where I formulate a nonexistent bad situation in my head and end up believing it.

What I need is a good concrete way of stopping this. A way to not let these make-believe situations take over my brain. I'm open to any sort of thing, but I'm just not able to see a therapist right now due to money situations.

If anyone has any sort of activity that I can do or book I can read, I would be grateful.

Thanks!
Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
8:10 pm
[jaclynl]
Medication
I have resisted medication up until this poinbt because I figured I could get through my depression with therapy and some of the techniques I have learned. My therapist is thinking I may be a "chronic" depressive, and that I am probably prone to depressive episodes. While we both feel that I am making significant progress I still say that I have only lifted from a 10 depressive state to maybe a 7 in a little over two months. She suggested I think about medication but said that if I continued on the same path my depression would probably lift but not very quickly. She said she thinks medication might make a significant improvement. She can't perscribe medication, and I really don't feel pressured at all, but because of my past I am thinking maybe I do need to be medicated. Any thoughts? Is anyone else on medication?

- Jaclyn
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
7:24 pm
[jaclynl]
How can you find evidence against something that is true?
Not sure how many people around here are regularly practicing CBT techniques, but I'm curious how you argue with yourself when you really truly believe that something is true. It's hard to find evidence against a hot thought that is also a core belief...

any one spent any significant time examining their core beliefs? and if so what have you done to try and change them?

Jaclyn
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
3:09 pm
[jaclynl]
Mindfulness
Hello..

Maybe this will trigger some conversation.

Does anyone currently use mindfulness techniques to aid in their depression??

Jaclyn
Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
7:27 pm
[lil_tinkerbelle]
this is a quiet community hey jaclyn! but we can make it busy!!!!!!!
i thought i post here instead of replying to your comment so that the community looks more busy!
I cant ever talk about anything emotional without crying either. or even think about stuff too much.
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
11:55 pm
[jaclynl]
Quiet
Since everyone is so quiet I thought I'd ask a question. For people who are already working with CBT, how often do you complete thought records? I find that the more I try to do the less able I am to find something to write about. In Mind over Mood the layout is very regimented and organized and while I think I could write out automatic thoughts all day I find it sometimes hard to pin it down to a situation that triggered my mood. For example with my therapist on Friday I cried through the whole thing, she asked me if my crying for a whole hour was a bad thing in my mind and I said no, because that's how it always is. I found that after that I could have written out some automatic thoughts but couldn't necessarily find the specific situation that triggered me. I always cry during therapy, in fact, I can't ever talk about anything emotional without crying and for me that is when I'm most aware of my thoughts. I guess I could start writting things out several times a day as a "check" so to speak instead of waiting for an event. Maybe I'm just trying to find things that seem like ligitimate triggers rather than just saying "it made me feel bad for no reason"

Just some thoughts.

Jaclyn
Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
9:31 pm
[jaclynl]
Hi...
Hello,

I've had low-grade depression for a large part of my life, characterized by extended periods of hapiness, sound judgement, self-awareness and general enjoyment followed by brief periods of depression, this usually occurs on an approximate 2 years good, 6 months bad cycle. I am currently in the middle of a depressive episode, one that feels to be my worst, but it seems like it always feels that way. Therapy has helped in the past and this time when I went my therapist suggested Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I bought a few books, the one already mentioned here "Feeling Good" and the second one that my therapist recommended was "Mind Over Mood" which I have not seen mentioned here yet. So far things seem to be going good, to the point of wondering if this is really depression eventhough she has assesed me on more than one ocassion and has confirmed that it is. I am now at the point where I maybe have 1 or 2 bad days a week, and I have only been in therapy again for about 4 weeks. I find this therapy so interessting, and very helpful. So far it has not decreased the severity of my moods but has made them occur less frequently, which seems to go against what the therapy teaches, but I'm not complaining.

It's nice to have a community to hear about the experience of others with this therapy. It is something that requires a lot of work and I have commited to doing it every day, which makes it quite time consuming and at times emotionally exhausting, but well worth it in my opinion.

Nice to meet everyone.

Jaclyn
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
10:47 am
[lil_tinkerbelle]
hey, this sound cool, lemmie intro myself

im 21, from down under and i have suffered with a range of eating disorders, depression, anxiety and blah blah,
i did a lil bit of counselling and ellel ministries but been in a state where i just dont want help but now i do so yeh im gonna buy that book when i get a chance and check out some therapists, cos counsellors and no help

anyways good to be here, luv you all

Current Mood: calm
10:43 am
[nobody89]
morning everyone!!!! Think positive and have a great uplifted day!!
im gonna buy that book and be depression free, ED free and love myself by 17!! Id say 16 but that only gives me like 6 months, but since im having a positive day, why not hope for the best!

Current Mood: optimistic
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
3:18 pm
[synergetic]
A good idea...
Having a community like this is a good idea. I've had anxiety and depression for over two years and pretty much the only thing that has made life liveable is CBT. I was first pointed to some of the methods through some books that didn't mention that was what it was. By the time I started counselling and thus CBT, I was already making sense of a little of the things in my head and it just happenned that some of the techniques I was developing alone were CBT related just the CBT ones expressed what I was trying to do much better and came up with things I hadn't figured out. I used it to at least make depression eminently bearable for the last year and a quarter enough that I stopped getting really depressed and recently I've managed to use it to help a hell of a lot with anxiety aswell. Enough, at least, that I can dig myself out of any bad mental state within a few days of dropping into one. I've learnt a hell of a lot about how my own brain works and why it gets stressed and depressed and how to counteract this and if anyone wants that knowledge, in case it's applicable to them, I would be most grateful to pass on what I know. Similarly, if there's anything anyone else knows, techniques that work for them for the same problems or ways of approaching things, I'd love to learn.
10:26 pm
[nobody89]
im gonna find a therapist who does cognative therapy, :) here's hoping that i can find a cheap one!!

hiiii to all the new peoples here!! so many people became members since i was here last night

Current Mood: crappy
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
3:59 pm
[herringprincess]
Intro
Hi there
Guess I ought to introduce myself. I never introduce myself in communities though, I tend to just wade in as there's generally too many people to remember anyway. But....well this community is brand spanking new, and I made it, so:
My name is Alison, I'm the mod. This is my third bout of depression. They don't tend to last very long - a few months to a year - but they keep coming back and I think the distortions I have affect me even when I'm not depressed (I'll do tests that are supposed to show if you need treatment, and I come up with depressed even when I'm in a good mood.) After my last bout (4 years ago) I bought Dr. Burns' 'Feeling Good' book and attempted to work through it. Now I'm depressed again I'm trying to put the principles into practise......it's hard.....but then everyhing seems to be when I'm like this.
Anyway, I'll post more specific stuff as and when it occurs to me, and I hope you will too.

Current Mood: busy
10:35 pm
[nobody89]
i did a bit of this in counselling two years ago for ED's and depression. Im in if you guys are :) Im young so I mite need help to understand at all tho :)

Current Mood: blah
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